News that Nobody Expected

"I am the news that nobody expected

I was never a part of your plans.

I'm the reason why life,

As you know it feels like,

It's slipping through your trembling hands." 

Today I heard Matthew West’s song Untold. Every line made me cry because it was so true for me carrying A. Although I went through the motions of trying to do the best thing for us, shame, embarrassment and hopelessness were my constant companions. The day that my brother and sister-in-law announced their own pregnancy, tears that should have been tears of joy poured out of my eyes because I felt that their baby was going to be more loved than mine.  

That story is just a tiny glimpse of many of the complicated thoughts a woman facing an unplanned pregnancy can have. 

My prayer is that for anyone who listens to this song will have hope for their future and their baby’s.

My prayer is our world becomes a place that empowers, supports, and encourages men and women who feel like their life is “slipping through their hands”. To walk alongside them.
To educate them on all of their options so that they can make a fully-informed choice.
To give them hope that their life is not over.
To be a solid, tangible presence so that they know they will not be alone.
To be prepared to help them raise their child, no matter what.
To love them unconditionally, no matter what.

Inside my belly, A was “God’s miracle in the working, proof that all things can work for the good”, and the best part was still coming! Thanks to the support of incredible, loving people, I was reminded constantly of that truth. And finally, when I saw her for the first time, I was able to understand how all things words for good.

"But when you hear my first cry, when you look in my eyes,

You’ll understand why

Why you brought me to life."